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Poetry
Sonali Pattnaik
Volume:
8
2024-06-01
Issue:
2
everything
my legs are legacies
of uncaged birds
birds that broke free
always getting away
from me
my heart is a solitary
fruit laden tree
the sun is a lamp
I light at daybreak
and the starry skies
songs of separation
nightly, I weave
some folks frown
when they hear me claim
what is their god’s work
as mine; you are not
everything, they chime
and what if everything is me?
the leaving birds
the ever-dying tree
the sun closing in upon earth
the starless canopy
is indeed all our doing
the fire and the kiln
of our beginnings
and our end?
and what if all the beauty
and the gloom were
the thread and the loom
of your being;
you, woven and tangled
in its weft and warp,
making and unmaking
with your every silence,
your every act?
how would you stitch your heart
how would you free your winged legs
how would you light your lamp
how would you hold the burning
of the stars?
it is almost dusk; the purple
of the sky is the tea I pour
into my teapot.
I write a storm of grief
you are in disbelief
as the waters rise
the tsunami is the water
rolling down our backs
before we dig our graves any further
will we not claim
our beauty and our misdeed?
are we not indeed everything?
these arms
stars will be caught
in the width of these arms
outstretched
and yet for you they shrunk
and now that I walk away
my arms they grow,
they unfold again
there is no dread, none at all
of what splendour or fire will
into their capacious expanse
once again, fall
“untimely ripped”
if you are walking away with a womb
no one asks if you are a thief
I have been one all my life
pregnant with another mind
unborn desires kicking into life
it is a badge of honour
that I carry on the inside
you must watch me closely
the next time–I’ve been sly.
It’s not the iron trunk
strapped and locked,
labelled ‘man-made’
this thing that I am growing
un-mothered organism bestride
sorrel pouch, ebbing
with the blaze of memories
fed by a timeless umbilical cord
attached to the centre of revolution
endless, swift and full
feeds the might infant
it speaks before it sees the light of day
frightening those who dare peep inside
it will collect the broken shards
of a biological anti-clock
“untimely ripped”,
from a stolen womb
born before its time
she knows, the ghostly mid-wife
she holds a pen and a palette knife
it’s time we delivered
and lay down the booty, she says,
and tell of how we ransacked the world
one theft at a time and flew
with the phantasmogoric newborn
nurtured in sibylline surrogacy
well-fed on freedom’s milk
strapped to our collective chests,
leaving broken structures behind
About the Poet
Dr. Sonali Pattnaik is an award-winning poet, a well-published academician, and visual artist from India who has a PhD and MPhil in English Literature. Her debut book of poetry when the flowers begin to speak (Writers Workshop) has been described as “a milestone in Indian feminist poetry” and featured in the prestigious Journal of Commonwealth Literature. Her art and poetry have appeared in several international journals including, The Hong Kong Review, Fem Asia, Setu, The Bombay Review and Muse India, and anthologised in print. An alumna and former Lecturer in English of Delhi University, she has taught literature to students of Delhi, Mumbai and Gujarat Universities for over twenty years and currently serves as External Expert, Board of Studies, St. Xavier’s college Ahmedabad, among other academic roles. She has long been an advocate of a gender-just society and has consistently worked towards this vision in her writing, teaching, activism and university administrative posts.